(this experience is mostly not a waiting experience, as we anxiously await what life brings us and often are in fear for the moment it stops bringing us more life.)
when you dropped your first shoe
this means you lost something, coming into being
which means being is not the total sum
when being is not all there is, but there is more to it, this means we also cannot plainly speak of not-being, as we cannot properly define "not" as there is no contrasting "not-not" as an absolute.
we beg to know what it was like before the first shoe was dropped. but can we?
when you drop your other shoe
you lost two shoes.
you are completely bare-footed.
you could realise this has always been the case: you didn't have any shoes to drop.
but still, you did. there is a surplus.
but...wasn't the surplus outside of being? how come, then, that the surplus now also seems to have been this "being"?
anyway, you cannot realise any of this the way you might imagine, as you have stopped being.
*listening to Rick Deitrick's 'Gentle Wilderness' while reading his "still strumming, waiting for the other shoe to drop." comment brought this about.
